GEORGIA BOUND

 Wow. I just looked and it’s been over a year since I’ve written a blog post. So much has happened that I couldn’t even know where to begin, I don’t even know where I should start. Drugs, Sex and jail time, where to even begin. Maybe I should just start at the beginning.

     I’m still dating N.P. although lately it’s been extremely rocky. Oh who am I kidding, it’s been a downright rollercoaster. And let’s not forget about D.H. who makes a short appearance in my life that’s still biting me in the ass to this day. NP and I had been doing well not great and a situation came up with someone I called my friend. Instantly np took his side and I was crushed. Couldn’t even believe me when I told him my side of the story. I felt so utterly alone that I called my bff for help. Even though he was a state away he instantly told me to come get him, and that’s exactly what I did. When we were attempting to leave his gf at the time insisted that she come too. I reluctantly agreed and was ecstatic when we dropped her off at one of her friends houses once we made it into town. Then we went about our business, him not leaving my side while being a total gentleman. The whole time we were in Florida he slept on the chair and me in my bed, having him there gave me such a peace. I slept better those nights than I had slept in weeks. After having my back and taking care of business we headed back to Georgia, leaving his gf in Florida. 

     When we got to Georgia I honestly didn’t know what I was gonna do. I thought my relationship with np was over and I was trying to accept that. The first night I was there I laid in his bed and he laid there next to me. Me under the covers and him on top of them. We talked for hours and laughed so hard my stomach hurt. It was such a nice feeling. Then out of nowhere he turned his head over towards me and did the unthinkable, he kissed me. I instantly felt a sense of love and desire which was new to me because nobody had ever made me feel that way before. We messed around and laughed like school kids never going all the way. That was okay though, for both of us. We were content just being in each others orbit. I didn’t want it to end. I know that he didn’t either. He begged me not to go back and was terrified that I wouldn’t be safe. I had to take that chance though, I had to face reality.